living in the dark side

after day by day i follow my path.. i feel that i already in deep lost..
don't know where to begin... where should i put myself use to..
there is a lot changes in my self..
some of them that know me already see different in me...
frenz this is not i suppose to be.. but i need time to change the old me...

ermm...

today i discuss with my soul... then she decide that she still in love with her ex...
very disappointment i am... i don't have the answer that i love her so much..
but i'm not the cruel person to make her love me so much so i decide to let her go to fine her happiness.
about me... erm there is nothing left for me...
if she happy with that i don't even care after this matter.
if she decided to left her ex and still love him she is the cruelness person...
may Allah will do what she i've done to me...

the walk

i walk for every step that left for me..
getting tired, even i feel that the tiredness bound in my route..
my eye, can't open without courage..
my mouth can't speak without someone...
heart was torn apart... may be this the last joy I've ever had..
threw the sunset of monday, I left my burden.. but it still appear..
threw the wind of smoke it still exist...
threw the night of sundown to drop it but it keep pushing me...
why the truth make me be such the horrible person...